Thanks Dear!

I believe most of you have already know what my decision is. Many asked me to stay. Some supported me to go. I'm glad so many people care. Thanks people. (: But, decision made. I won't be changing unless i'm really so sway that the natural disaster comes before Jan. Then, I'll have to find Zoe already! She cursed me. xD

Anyway, though going overseas will be a totally different living environment and it gets so lonely at night, I just need support from my dearest and I will endure through the 3 months. I'm very glad that my mum, my bro and esp my Dear supported me to go. Just mentally is already enough for me. Because all I need is just that and nothing else.

I dun wanna get all so emotional here so i'll end here now. Blog again soon.


Dedicated to my Dearest Boyfriend:
Thanks so much for your support. Really. It is all i ever hoped for. 3 months seems really long. But I know we can pull through this tough moment together. If I can, I really really wish to bring you along with me. I'm sorry I couldn't do anything much for you. And, left with you are only torments of long separation. I couldn't imagine the scene of the day I'll be flying to Germany. I dun wan to think. I refuse to. Let us just cherish the times we have now and dun think of any other things. I just want to save all these precious moments in my memory. I love you.

Shld I?

A question to be answered. A question for me to ponder. A decision to be made with no regrets. The many factors that I have to consider. Consequences that I have to bear. It's 4 months. 12 hours of flight to Frankfurt. Stay or go?

I have no answers at all. So what if I ask for opinions from Dear, family, friends? I still have to make the final decision myself. It's a rare opportunity indeed, at the same time I couldn't bare to put down my feelings. It's always easy to be said than done. My friends told me it is a very good opportunity. But will you really go without hesitation?

I'm struggling with this decision that no one could help, not even my closest. A mixed feelings that I'm going through when I picked up the call. For just that instance, too many things went through my mind. I couldn't feel the happiness anymore.

Now that nobody is objecting, the decision lies in me and nobody else. No way can I back out after confirmation. Then again, it's redundant for me to apply for OSEP again next year.

I'm so tired right now after a day's work in HumanLink. I dunno whether or not I'm in the right state of mind to make wise decision. I felt as if my body has been pulled apart. If only, I can put my feelings in a box and packed it in my luggage. I won't have such a difficult time deciding whether or not to go.

What if the relationship just ends subsequently? Of cos many people will said it's fate. But isn't it easier to keep a relationship going if I'm staying? There's many ways on how each of us sees it. After all, I'm just worried things might go wrong after I come back.

Still staying up,
pondering the same qns that's in my mind..


Can someone give me an answer?

Moodswings.

I guess I must have been having moodswings for this week. Everything seems to affect my mood. From friends to family. Whatever it is, I hope it's just a temporary mood that I'm having. Over time, I see how impatient a person can be, how people takes thing for granted. Whatever it is, I only care that I'm spending so little time with Dear. humph! But, at least we went to play badminton ytd afternoon at RP. Cool and his Auntie Florence snatched him to play a few matches with the rest. Heh.

HumanLink has been doing good, trying to make friends with the rest of the teams. Some looks friendly, some doesn't. We dun care anyway. Events coming up. Counting down to 7 more weeks. :D No more full shift work!

Yea, we had Flowers gathering on Thur. Cool man! Everyone was there. It's been so long. ): I missed all of them except Zoe. :P Haha.

Our first visit to NYNY. Notice my sitting position.
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Second visit to NYNY, same table. See! My sitting position hasn't changed. You know why?
Because Rachel's hand is always there to 'pull' me over to her side. xD
Anyway, you can see how everyone's hairstyle changes except for mine i think. Lol. I did cut my hair okay!

POSB sent me the summary of my transactions for the past 6 months. It's really shocking to see I've spent a thousand for half a yr excluding my usual allowance. End up, I was being nagged by Dear rather than my mum. ): Saddening. My bank is almost empty now. Sigh. I shld really stop my splurge on Online Shopping. But, I really cant resist those pretty apparels! God, drop some money from the sky! )):

Update again soon.

ilu, Dear.

Kungfu Panda

Caught a flick "Kungfu Panda" with Dear and his cousin on Fri. It's a nice show i must say. Altho I dun really like cartoon movies. If you feel down, go catch it! You'll feel better after seeing this panda using his tummy to fight with the leopard. xD

Sat, I went bowling with Dear and his cousin again. We played 3 games. 'Washed a few times of drains'. ): Anyway, i just like going out with Dear like that. I'm actually thinking of some other places to go when we're free again. But i doubt so. Cos' I dun think i have holidays after my TEP. SAD!

Alright, nvm. Back to HumanLink. This few days, we've been familiarising with the standard protocol that we have in HumanLink. For the first few days, i was actually overwhelmed by the workload. Thereafter, I think it's pretty much okay, with the help of the rest of my Team members. Dun be shocked if you see us communicating so well now. xD For now, it's only within ourselves, HL. In weeks to come, hopefully we can communicate with the rest of the BSU Teams.

Last Thur, I had the OSEP interview. But, i think it's should be called 'Q&A session'. Not sure when will the results be out. Probably if i'm in for the OSEP, should be to Germany next year Jan as South Korea has only 4 vacancies. Will talk abt it again when results' out. (:

These few days have been really tired. Shag. Lethargic. Other than that, I dun think i have anything to add on to express my mood.


Just wanna say,
I really dunno how to express my love for you, Dear. (:

Start work!

I'll be starting my 9-week TEP stopover A Humanlink tomorrow. Yes, tomorrow. Should I be glad that I'm in HumanLink or should I be sad that i need to wake up at 6.30am every morning to ensure I reach there on time? I've taken a long enough break, time to start work Jiaying. While thinking back, I felt I din do much the past few years. Esp during holidays. sigh. I'm sucha pathetic fella. Plans not done. I should really start on sth. Anything that I'm able to fulfill so that I won't feel that lousy. *shake head*

I came across this blockbuster movie "Garfield" while I was switching channels just now. You know, practically nth to watch. The Garfield is really cute and naughty! I thought Garfield only knows how to sleep. xD If you're bored, you should really catch this movie, not the Cartoon show.

Well, I guess I should turn in now before I'm late for the first training tomorrow.
Till then..

Great Singapore Sales!

Oh god! Great Singapore Sales is simply irresistible! Normally, I wouldn't spend my money on apparels at Causeway Point. I actually bought 2 tops when I walked around with Zoe. Haha. Maybe only when Zoe's beside me. xD No la. Just kidding! Lol. Anyway, the price is really affordable after discounts! Because if there's no discounts, I guess the top doesn't worth buying at all.

Oh ya, before i forget to advertise my blogshop! FINALLY! We're having GREAT SINGAPORE SALES too! xD SHOPPING MATTERS! Click on the "Sales" link, there are currently 2 series items on Promotion. (Z-Zoe, J-Jiaying) I'm giving away free UNO Washing Scrub/UNO Super Creamy Wax or Normal Postage. UNO is a Japan brand, manufactured by Shiseido Co. Ltd. Do support! :D

These few days have been spending time with Dear. I can feel the happiness in me whenever he's by my side. Flipping through the newspaper, most of us could really feel the sorrows for the China's Earthquakes victims. Everyone is so afraid of death but why are people still unsatisfied with life, not cherish the ones around you? When one day you are them, you will know what I mean and really start treasuring the things you have and not wishing for more. It's disheartening witnessing these tragedies happening to humans. Is the world falling apart? Maybe the next generation will have the answer.

I received a call from the person-in-charge of OSEP. I'm shortlisted for the interview on 12 June. Shimei didn't receive the call. Sigh. I'm alone for the trip as expected. I guess I'll only go if I'm selected for the Korea Uni. I will update again after the interview.

Irritating mosquito has been bitting me for the past few days when I'm using my laptop in the living room! And, it's always when it bit me 4-5 times that i realised it is there. Because I don't see it flying, that's why I have no idea how to get rid of it. IRRITATING! I'm bitten for more than 10 times! -.-

Anyway, I've uploaded all the selected photos into myphotoalbum. You can view the full album now. (: Be warned! There are over 300 of them. Hah.

Off to read my Cleo magazine! Updates again soon. (: